This site is basically my own Diary!!
I will be adding my thoughts here anytime I want and however I want!!
Used for venting and random notes for myself and stuffz!! Maybe you'll find it interesting!! :3
That's probably all you need to know about this place!
12.2.2025 - Today is officially the worst day in my life.
I have never felt so horrible and lost, future shattered to sharp tiny shards,
all slowly falling on me and making me bleed tears.
I lost everything I ever cared about. Now I am just ambitionless unmotivated piece of matter.
I feel no purpose or a reason why I should keep going now.
Everything lost in a brim of a second.
My whole future changed, forever, my dreams never to be seen again.
Yet one will not understand if they won't feel such pain in those conditions I struggle with.
No matter how much comforting I get, They wont understand the importance he held for me.
For the way my life would go.
I dont deserve or want anything anymore,
for I already lost the most, I could've ever had.
Max's out, for now.
24.2.2025 - My life is still going downhill and I dont see the end of it anytime soon.
I keep being overwhelmed over everything and don't believe in myself in any situation possible.
I don't remember last time i felt so horrible, maybe I didn't yet.
I want to be normal. I wish I could feel normal for at least one day.
I feel left out of everything.
You got over it so quickly..
So many thoughts are running through my head and wont leave me at peace.
Just please make it stop someone, anyone.
I want at least a bit of motivation in my life.
Max's out, for now.
25.2.2025 - I am slowly losing my mind.
I am trying my fucking best I can force myself to try, please, please put me to sleep
for at least 4 days straight, I dont fucking know
I think I am slowly going crazy, I am so lost. I cant do anything
If I would be normal, I wouldn't have these problems
Why couldn't I be born normal, why do I have to be this way
I dont have the strenght to care more than this,
and even the "care" I put in is slowly fading.
Hell, if I'll suddenly dissapear, at least you'll know how.
I have absolutely no idea if anyone reads these, but if they do,
I am sorry for you
Max's out, for now.